This is a terrible terrible night. She saw us kiss? Shit! She won‘t even look at me. I’m so blurred. Where am I? What happened? Why’d Tina just leave? Answers. Answers. I need the god damn answers. Fuck.

Just this morning everything was fine. I woke up beside her, she kissed me on my lips, I remember her saying “good morning baby” like she always does then I made her breakfast and we both hurried off to work, after planting another passionate kiss, as I recall.

We were so in love. Actually we always have been in love, ever since the first time we met.

She looked gorgeous that night, in her red velvet dress, her red lipstick shining so seductively that all the men and the women in the room were drooling over them. I knew she was the center of attraction. And I also knew that she knew it too. She knew she could control anyone she would pick out of this messy crowd begging for her attention. She knew everyone was just wrapped around her delicate fingers. But she was just so kind to break a heart with a one night stand and a kiss in the morning saying Goodbye. Not to forget, she was also straight.

As she walked in the bar, all eyes were on her but she pretended like she didn’t bother. But I know that’s where she noticed me for the first time. I was under the spotlight, a guitar wrapped around my neck and the microphone starting at me as though saying “Sing God Dammit” I could hear my heart beat so loud. It was like the metronome so steady and so loud, pounding like it wanted to break free and just run to her.

As I sang, I didn’t realize that throughout the few minutes that felt like forever, I was staring right into her eyes. I guess that seemed to have tickled her from the inside because she giggled every now and then. She felt comfortable I presumed because she didn’t have any sign of hesitation in her eyes. Nothing. I walked over to the bar and ordered some beer. That’s the first time we talked. Jealousy suffocated me from every corner of the room. We talked about everything like there was no tomorrow but tomorrow was yet to come and when it came we got closer to each other everyday that passed by.